There goes Tony’s personal little inappropriate thought bubble. Steve’s gone and gotten emotional on him and Tony isn’t in the right mindset for that. Besides, what Steve says about it not being enough? He gets it. He doesn’t mind saying that he does, even if it just puts this conversation safely out of the realm of plate-on-knee posturing. “I get what you mean,” he confirms, verbally. “It’s great and all, but missing the love. Took me most of my life to find it and the shitty part is that it was there for a long time, waiting for me. I missed a lot of years. And I missed a lot more years just dragging my feet. Stupid. It was stupid. And it’s over now and I can kick myself, but it’s not going to do any good.”
But Steve keeps putting up the little tidbits about the Guy in Des Moines which leads Tony to think he’s talking about the guy that features the heaviest in his sketchbooks, even the ones from after the war, the ones he left in his room at the compound, and not so much the gal he’d had plans to dance with at the end of the war.
Generally, Tony’s an ass sometimes just to be an ass, but this time, he’s an ass because he’s curious and he still doesn’t have that Other People’s Shoes mentality on his best days. Empathy isn’t something that had ever been instilled in him, but he’s gotten better than he had been the first time he and Steve met.
“Yours was Barnes. That’s why you did what you did. And why everyone else has been so empty.”
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Date: 2018-06-25 03:47 pm (UTC)But Steve keeps putting up the little tidbits about the Guy in Des Moines which leads Tony to think he’s talking about the guy that features the heaviest in his sketchbooks, even the ones from after the war, the ones he left in his room at the compound, and not so much the gal he’d had plans to dance with at the end of the war.
Generally, Tony’s an ass sometimes just to be an ass, but this time, he’s an ass because he’s curious and he still doesn’t have that Other People’s Shoes mentality on his best days. Empathy isn’t something that had ever been instilled in him, but he’s gotten better than he had been the first time he and Steve met.
“Yours was Barnes. That’s why you did what you did. And why everyone else has been so empty.”