People always implied to Steve that penetrative sex was more intense than oral or handjobs. Now he gets it. It's not so much the physical sensations, but the body-to-body contact and the awareness of the other person's physical presence makes a huge difference. He's trembling as he starts to come down from it, breathing heavy, and he's aware there are tears staining his cheeks. He's glad Tony's facing away from him for that reason, but even more so when he grabs onto him and makes it clear he's no more ready to separate than Steve is.
Steve feels unbelievably delicate. One wrong movement, one harsh word could break him. He's frightened and euphoric, and he holds onto Tony because the last thing he wants to do is let him go.
He loves Pepper. He reminds himself. And I love Bucky. Except, of course, Steve said it himself, earlier: It's possible to love more than one person at a time.
That's a better reason to have done this than simple desperation for a connection to hold onto. Although, it's possible to have more than one reason for doing something, too.
Gradually, his breath evens out, but not without hitches in it, telltale sobs that probably betray to Tony how he's not the only one affected by this. Steve tilts his head forward, nuzzling in to rest his forehead against the back of Tony's hair.
"God. Tony...? Can we...both agree...that that wasn't a one-time thing?" He croaks, once he thinks he's found his voice again. "Please?"
They've strayed into emotional waters too treacherous to navigate without wrecking, but he's pretty sure they can find common ground in 'that-felt-good', if nothing else. "You feel...you're warm. Thank you..."
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Date: 2018-06-29 08:11 pm (UTC)Steve feels unbelievably delicate. One wrong movement, one harsh word could break him. He's frightened and euphoric, and he holds onto Tony because the last thing he wants to do is let him go.
He loves Pepper. He reminds himself. And I love Bucky. Except, of course, Steve said it himself, earlier: It's possible to love more than one person at a time.
That's a better reason to have done this than simple desperation for a connection to hold onto. Although, it's possible to have more than one reason for doing something, too.
Gradually, his breath evens out, but not without hitches in it, telltale sobs that probably betray to Tony how he's not the only one affected by this. Steve tilts his head forward, nuzzling in to rest his forehead against the back of Tony's hair.
"God. Tony...? Can we...both agree...that that wasn't a one-time thing?" He croaks, once he thinks he's found his voice again. "Please?"
They've strayed into emotional waters too treacherous to navigate without wrecking, but he's pretty sure they can find common ground in 'that-felt-good', if nothing else. "You feel...you're warm. Thank you..."