This single gesture finally sums up everything that’s been bothering Tony about their intense, freshly cauterized relationship. Tony told Steve, the night before, that he needed to be loved. That he needed to have someone to ground him in that way or he didn’t think he could go on for too long. Steve played the part really well: he’s promised him that love, made love to him, and managed to somehow pull an apology from Tony rather than an argument when Tony said something dumb. The Why has been nagging him since then, but it’s clicked. Finally. Truly.
Steve does love him. Loves all of him. Maybe the blond is one of those people that can and does love freely and openly. Or maybe it’s been a long time coming. It doesn’t matter the length of time as much as it does the truly real and genuine quality of that love.
Tony’s heart aches as Steve touches him, not because he longs for it as much as he feels almost guilty for cementing the blond to him like this. The sensation passes quickly. Tony is selfish in life and this is his life now. He wants Steve and he’s going to keep him. No matter how badly he might feel or how better he thinks he can do somewhere else.
Tony responds to the touch by putting his hand on Steve’s hip and letting it slide up the thick muscle of his side and abdomen. “We can’t risk changing too much. Let the nuke happen. I used to think I did it to show you up but honestly, it’s my proudest moment. Sounds dumb to say it out loud. But you taught me something about myself. It needs to happen.”
And if this Tony dies in the process? Well, he’ll be there to help out with the better parts of his accomplishments.
And there will never be an Ultron. There’s a darkness in Tony that likes that. He caused so much hurt. He brought on so much destruction. Maybe it’s better for the world if the younger him does die.
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This single gesture finally sums up everything that’s been bothering Tony about their intense, freshly cauterized relationship. Tony told Steve, the night before, that he needed to be loved. That he needed to have someone to ground him in that way or he didn’t think he could go on for too long. Steve played the part really well: he’s promised him that love, made love to him, and managed to somehow pull an apology from Tony rather than an argument when Tony said something dumb. The Why has been nagging him since then, but it’s clicked. Finally. Truly.
Steve does love him. Loves all of him. Maybe the blond is one of those people that can and does love freely and openly. Or maybe it’s been a long time coming. It doesn’t matter the length of time as much as it does the truly real and genuine quality of that love.
Tony’s heart aches as Steve touches him, not because he longs for it as much as he feels almost guilty for cementing the blond to him like this. The sensation passes quickly. Tony is selfish in life and this is his life now. He wants Steve and he’s going to keep him. No matter how badly he might feel or how better he thinks he can do somewhere else.
Tony responds to the touch by putting his hand on Steve’s hip and letting it slide up the thick muscle of his side and abdomen. “We can’t risk changing too much. Let the nuke happen. I used to think I did it to show you up but honestly, it’s my proudest moment. Sounds dumb to say it out loud. But you taught me something about myself. It needs to happen.”
And if this Tony dies in the process? Well, he’ll be there to help out with the better parts of his accomplishments.
And there will never be an Ultron. There’s a darkness in Tony that likes that. He caused so much hurt. He brought on so much destruction. Maybe it’s better for the world if the younger him does die.